My wish

I can't sleep right now and I should be up feeding you baby Jaydan. It's my 28th birthday today and I had planned on celebrating with my new lil baby boy and my sweet daughter Jordan. I am so lucky to have Jordan here but I can't help but wish you were here to Jaydan. Our birthdays would have been so close together if you arrived safely on your due date. I still feel so mad at myself for not keeping u safe in my womb. Why does this happen?

I have realized so much since I had to say goodbye to Jaydan. Not a day goes by that I don't think about you baby. I can't help but cry, it hurts so bad not having you here. The little things like celebrating my birthday are so different now. I will make a wish today. I hope you are with me today and everyday my little angel of protection.

Oh I am feeling mad right now but I have my Jordan to celebrate and that gives me hope that everything is going to be okay. Although I planned on celebrating with Jordan and baby Jaydan today I am sooooo lucky to have Jordan and your little footprints in my heart.

I miss you baby boy.Oh I miss you so much and it hurts not having you here with your family. I know you are here tho and I must remember that when I'm feeling so sad.

I will be making a special wish today and I sure hope it comes true......
I love you baby Jaydan with all of my heart. Catch my warm kiss in heaven

Our time together was way to short but you taught me something very important, to enjoy the simple things in life more.

Oh lord please keep my family safe

Muwahhhh
I love you my baby boy
Love Momma

Due Date

Thursday March 18, 2010
My Dear Baby Jaydan,
Although our time together was so brief, you changed my life forever....
I can not hold you in my arms today,
but you are close to me always.
In my heart is where you belong for now. And one day I will hold you close again.
Until then I will think of you daily and miss you always....
It snowed on the day I gave birth to you January 30th, 2010
And today was your due date and it's snowing.
You are my little Winter Angel
I love you baby Jaydan
Catch my warm kiss Mwuahhhhh