I can't sleep right now and I should be up feeding you baby Jaydan. It's my 28th birthday today and I had planned on celebrating with my new lil baby boy and my sweet daughter Jordan. I am so lucky to have Jordan here but I can't help but wish you were here to Jaydan. Our birthdays would have been so close together if you arrived safely on your due date. I still feel so mad at myself for not keeping u safe in my womb. Why does this happen?
I have realized so much since I had to say goodbye to Jaydan. Not a day goes by that I don't think about you baby. I can't help but cry, it hurts so bad not having you here. The little things like celebrating my birthday are so different now. I will make a wish today. I hope you are with me today and everyday my little angel of protection.
Oh I am feeling mad right now but I have my Jordan to celebrate and that gives me hope that everything is going to be okay. Although I planned on celebrating with Jordan and baby Jaydan today I am sooooo lucky to have Jordan and your little footprints in my heart.
I miss you baby boy.Oh I miss you so much and it hurts not having you here with your family. I know you are here tho and I must remember that when I'm feeling so sad.
I will be making a special wish today and I sure hope it comes true......
I love you baby Jaydan with all of my heart. Catch my warm kiss in heaven
Our time together was way to short but you taught me something very important, to enjoy the simple things in life more.
Oh lord please keep my family safe
Muwahhhh
I love you my baby boy
Love Momma
Lindsay, my heart breaks for you. Can't imagine what you are going through. Like I actually couldn't fathom it. I thank God that you have Jordan to keep you strong. You will always miss him and I know it will never stop hurting, but I promise you one day it will get easier. Time heals all things. Your hard days will get easier and farther between, and you will find yourself smiling again. Surround yourself with those who care and of course your beautiful girl Jordan. Might sound weird, but I think of you everyday, I can't imagine how hard this is. Stay strong hunny.
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